A moment of weakness

Maybe you felt it too, maybe not...

Maybe you woke up one day and despite the feeling of exhaustion or dread dragged yourself to early meditations when you could barely keep your eyes open and would have given anything for an hour more of sleep.

Maybe you eventually relaxed and figured that you didn't give a damn about your day, maybe you were just eager to get over with the classes you had in order to go back home and sleep.

Maybe, despite your lack of interest in the courses you have that day, luck seems to be on your side...and everything works out in the end, but not due to your struggle to achive something, rather because of your belief that things will be alright.

Maybe you were appalled to discover that luck wasn't on others' side as well as yours...maybe you find your best friends get bad news while you bask in your recent achievements. And you feel bad...because you realize, one day you may be in his/her place. And there will probably be someone else pitying you and considering himself as lucky.

Maybe you suddenly get a feeling of loneliness. And maybe it feels awkard because you had a really good day that you didn't even struggle for and yet you feel incomplete. Isn't it ironic?

Maybe you suddenly feel empty. Maybe all you need is one big hug from the one person who cannot give it to you. Because you may not know his name yourself, not to mention telling him. Maybe you feel as if you should tell someone but nobody can understand. Maybe you have so many thoughts bothering you, and they are all sad, and you don't even know what's wrong. Maybe it's just a fleeting moment of weakness...and maybe, just maybe, everything will be gone by morning, and you may resume your day-to-day normal life, unaware of the internal struggle that threatens to show itself in moments of weakness or loneliness...Maybe you're just tired and memories are coming back.

It's just a moment of weakness...and it goes away just like happy or sad moments do...

It's up to you if it comes back, if you're vulnerable enough to allow the sadness to consume your thoughts...think about it. Has it truly never happened to you?